Introverted Extrovert

Today has been a long and draining day.

So many emotions, feelings, thoughts, and tears. Sometimes the only release is to cry… and write.

Writing has always had healing power for me. Much like in my childhood; paper, pens, and books are where I hid… where I shared… where I let go. 

Letting go is not always easy but when you share with something that can’t talk back things get a lot simpler. 

On top of this emotion filled day I learned or rather I was reminded of something that I’d forgotten about myself being a Leo and all. For the most part I am most definitely an introvert. I prefer my own company to the company of mass strangers and I refuel or refind my center by doing solo things like listening to music, reading, or writing. 

This video was assigned for a class but has helped me today so I’m sharing:

Rediscovering that my outgoing personality has nothing to do with how I recharge was a blessing. It also confirmed why I disdain clubs/big parties, and why I tend to enjoy the company of those that I’ve known most of my life. 

I’m a walking contradiction in a sense because I truly love meeting new people, believing that, strangers are just friends that haven’t met yet; but I don’t always like the people I meet. I love everyone but my tolerance for ignorance and bullshxt is low these days.

I am going to work on catering to and loving on all of who I am. We cannot forget the foundation of who we are because we grow from that place, friendly reminders help us stay in contact with that inner child that still sees everyone as our friend.

Peace & Blessings

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Food for thought….

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Good Ole Nintendo

So much in my life has changed since my last blog. I started the job in childcare and quit less than a month later. I have a boyfriend now and his children are growing on my heart the more time I spend with them. I have chosen a career path (or rather it has chosen me) and I have goals that I am working to achieve.

Now on to why I decided to write. Classics versus new school. Oldies versus newbies.

As I am currently “sitting” with my boyfriend’s children I was figuring out what to do with them. His youngest wanted to play a game. Since I’m not into game systems like that and my child is only 3 all I have on deck is Nintendo. I’m not talking N64, Nintendo DS, or any of that fancy stuff. I mean Nintendo. See image below.

nintendo

Of course my system still half works. Meaning, it works when it wants to work. So after failed attempts I got Duck Hunt to work, Yoshi, and then the system gave me a big middle finger and refused to get past the blinking purple screen. Oh well. My attempt to entertain children between the ages of 3 and 7 failed tragically. I tried. Parenting multiple children has presented challenges that I never imagined would come so quickly in my life. I often refer back to the fact that GOD doesn’t put more on us than we can bear.

In this moment, I’m asking GOD if HE’s sure… lol. My child being the youngest likes to be the baby of the group. Since he is the only child he is definitely having problems sharing and adapting to more children being around. Sometimes he does great, other times we all need a time out. I’m old-fashioned though so I don’t believe in giving up. Just taking things one day at a time. Until next time…. Just a glimpse into my crazy life. More to come, I guarantee!!!

“If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales. If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales.”
― Albert Einstein

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